We are deep in the throes of birthday month which is historically a bit of an emotional time for me. I mean dealing with two out of three babies growing out of babyhood in the space of two weeks is just more than my heart can bear. But obvs I don’t realise that until after I cry randomly at an advert or shout at my children. So much emotion, so little time.
And yet, despite my pleas, they are determined to keep getting older. Seemingly needing me less and less in the physical sense and more and more in the emotional sense. It’s hard to stomach sometimes.
But we soldier on and life keeps coming at me no matter how hard I try and keep things calm. In fact there is so much going on right now that I can’t think of one thing at a time. It’s also why this blog is seemingly so quiet right now. I’m not getting out nearly as many posts as I’d like. It’s upsetting to me, makes my eye twitch and everything, but yet there is just not enough time in the day to fix that. I know you’ll understand but I’m not going to lie, it’s really disheartening to see the stats drop and the engagement so low. I know it’s my own fault because I’m not putting enough time into making sure I check in on others, but still. It sucks.
Nevertheless, this is not a pity post. This is me knocking things off my to do list like a boss so that I can feel in control of my life again. Boom – take that productivity!
Doing: All the party things. A couple of weeks ago we celebrated Kyla’s birthday with a Chinese themed party at our house with close family and friends (pictured up there is how she decorated the lounge for the occasion). This Friday we celebrate Riya and she has decided that we all need to dress like royalty but we’ll be eating Steers burgers. Funny girl. I have found that having a home party is way better than going out, I like that they take a bit of initiative and also get a chance to have something that feels like them as opposed to having to share the party (and let’s be honest, have me breathing down their necks in terms of how I want it to look).
Then of course on the Saturday it’s the big party! Camping themed this time and I cannot wait to share all the cool things I’ve found to do. There is still SO much to do that thinking about it is making me feel sick, but I will nail it. Even if that means having to by all of it instead of making it this year. In fact, that’s exactly what I’m going to do because it is what it is and I’m not going to feel bad about it. You only YOLO once and all that.
Side note: How cool is it that there is a Barbie that sort of looks like me?! Guys, she’s even short! My girls have gone crazy over her and now “Cindy” is walking around the house telling them to go to sleep and eat their vegetables. HAHA
Excited About: There’s a lot going on right now. Some of which involves my work at Incompass (we’re busy rebranding and finally bringing it into the here and now). But also there is something else that may be happening that is pretty awesome.
I have been offered my very own radio slot.
I know right?! What were they thinking?! I’m both over the moon excited but at the same time super freaking anxious about the whole thing. But I know that if I don’t try it, I will forever wonder what if. And I can’t deal with that kind of FOMO. The thing is Seth is not that keen. The reason is because he loves me and he sees that I am currently crazy stressed and so it’s understandable that he is concerned. I get it. I totally do. But if it means that I cut down on blog content or maybe not accept any additional content that is sponsored then I think I am willing to make that sacrifice. It’s only once a week for 2 hours. Anyway, I need to work out a couple of things, but there is a very real chance that this may happen in the next month.
(I’m deliberately not mentioning the name of the radio station as I don’t want it to be awkward for them or me if it doesn’t happen)
Watching: There is very little that I love as much as curling up in front of a great series. It makes me so happy. Especially when I have a natural inclination to check my phone in the evenings it makes a nice change to get lost in an imaginary World instead of checking social media and ending up feeling really crappy. I love the connections that it all brings but wow, it can be a sad place. So back to fake realities that I have loved immersing myself in…
FRIENDS FROM COLLEGE: We smashed this series in the space of a week. The episodes are short and it’s lighthearted. In fact this is the first comedy that I have actually laughed out loud in for absolute ages. I just love their sense of humour and I hope that they make the next season soon.
OZARK: This is a bit of a weird one. It’s kind of Dexter meets Breaking Bad esque but I think I like it. I feel quite invested in it actually and we’re only half way. I do love dark and twisted series.
DESPICABLE ME 3: We took the kids to watch the latest in the Minion movies and they loved it. I really liked the bad guy and the songs and dancing of his fighting skills. It was very funny. But also slightly inappropriate. Kyla has been reading this over my shoulder and asked why I haven’t included what she liked about the movie, so here goes. Kyla thinks that Despicable Me is – I liked it when the guitar like blew them, and then like all their clothes fell off and then we saw their private parts but not really. And it was so inappropriate when they sang happy birthday. I liked watching it and I loved the popcorn, and I want to go again. Riya says, “Um, um, I liked it when the children went to see Despicable Me’s brother and the Despicable Me mother didn’t actually swim because she was just fake swimming because there was a man underneath holding. And also when what Kyla said. What Kyla said I like. And it’s so inappropriate.
LOL. These kids. Favourite parts but say it’s inappropriate.
Enjoying: Being back in a good food routine. It was so flipping hard to break out of the bad habits I formed again in Italy, but I think I am over that now. Thank goodness. My skin is thanking me for it and finally seeming to be less of a red splotch and more of a pink glow. YAY!
I’ve been trying a number of things now to get myself back in the game and I might talk about a few of the cool things I’ve been trying out from Faithful to Nature in another post later this week.
Sad about: You know our big beautiful clock that has been hanging up on our fireplace since we moved in here? And hung in our green grey lounge of our old house? And first adorned our walls in our very first teeny tiny bachelor flat that we moved into just after we got married? It got broken the other day. And I’m not going to lie, I cried a little. I remember the exact day and time that we bought that clock (at Canal Walk after watching 300 for the 3rd time at the cinema with our friends who hated the movie we loved haha).
Hope you guys are having the best week!